Higher Power

Talking about my personal beliefs in a Higher Power is difficult. I often don't because I am certain I will be judged for the manner in which I seek a deeper relationship with the Divine. I have found that in creating a list of what my Higher Power is, it often starts with a list of what my HP is not.

So…here's taken a step out of my comfort zone. (You may need to download Hebrew Font to read)



I believe in ~yhla, Elohiym. The plurality of God. The God of Judaism, Islam, and Christianity.



I believe in hwhy, pronounce Adonay, also translated as Jehovah, or Yahweh- translated as the "the existing ONE" from adown (!wda) meaning master OR husband.


 
In the beginning, God created the heaven and the earth. And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

In Genesis, God is referred to Elohiym, the plural form. Later, in GEN 1:26, it says, "Let US make man after our image" referring to the plurality of God. Later when on, there becomes a separation, and Elohiym is Adonay – from the plural to the singular.

And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep.

The words for FORM and VOID are Tohuw and Bohuw, UNREALITY and EMPTY.

DARKNESS is Choshek, a secret place. Whereas Tohuw and Bohuw are NOUNS (states of being) Choshek is a VERB – a state of doing.

DEEP is Ehowm - derivative of Huwm, meaning discomfort, confusion.

Then the feminine word for BREATH is used, and this breath of Eloyhim moved (Rachaph, meaning relaxed), on the face of the waters. Waters, the Hebrew word Mayhim, meaning confusion…Mayhem.

The BREATH RELAXED THE MAYHEM.

And God said, let there be light, and there was light.

Again, a feminine word OWR, in the NOUN form meaning light, in the verb form meaning illumination.

And the plurality of God, said let there be light, and the mayhem was illuminated.

This is how I feel about my relationship with God.

That there was a state of unreality and emptiness, and that within them was a secret place. Deep, discomfort and confusion. Then the breath of God relaxed the confusion, and moved over the mayhem. Eloyhim said let there be light, and the confusion was illuminated.

This is the Genesis of my relationship with God.



On rereading, it may seem hard to follow my thought process, but I really wanted to share this.