My Life is Unmanageable

Step One

“Admitted we were powerless over alcohol and our lives were unmanageable”

It’s been over fifteen years since I was relieved of the obsession of alcohol. But, it seems lately, I have let my life become unmanageable. My weight, my finances, my household…none of these are in order.

In the forward to the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions (12&12), it is written:

“Many people, nonalcoholics, report that as a results of the practice of A.A.’s Twelve Steps, they have been able to meet other difficulties of life. They think that the Twelve Steps can mean more than sobriety for problem drinkers. They see in them a way to happy and effective living for many, alcoholic or not.”

I have found that the twelve steps are just the place I need to turn, and I am smack dab in the middle of Step One.

Here is a portion of Step One in the 12&12 with other words taking the place of the word drink/drinking.

“Who cares to admit complete defeat? Practically no one, of course. Every natural instinct cries out against the idea of personal powerlessness. It is truly awful to admit that, (thought, food, money) in hand, we have warped our minds into such an obsession for destructive (thinking, eating, spending) that only an act of Providence can remove it from us.”

So, I am waiting for an act of God. But, if God is the Director, and we are the actors…we must act! I am ready to face the wreckage of my past and put the pieces together one by one, and pray for some miracles to help me along the way. Because, “unless he has first accepted his devastating weakness and all its consequences. Until he so humbles himself his sobriety, if any, will be precarious. Of real happiness he will find none at all.”